January 10, 2012 Leave a comment
Who am I?
What a question to ask yourself, huh?
Don’t worry. I am not going to wax on philosophically about who I am. However, I will present a few questions and…thoughts…to you.
Last Sunday my pastor said something that hit me like a ton of bricks.
“Being a Christian is about loving others. You can’t love others until you love yourself. You can’t love yourself until you know yourself.”
Honestly, over the past few months, as I struggle with my work, my friends and the opposite sex, that question has come up in a variety of ways. I get really down about myself sometimes. I could be nicer, more giving, more honest (with others and myself), a tad bit less loud, thinner, more content. The list just goes on and on. But no matter the laundry list of improvements, I generally circle back to being pretty dang happy with who I am.
And then the cycle starts over again and I feel guilty for liking, even loving, myself.
But I think I’ve finally come to a conclusion. There are definite improvements I need to make and things I need to be better at, but at the end of the day, I was made in the image of God, so I am pretty freakin’ awesome, ya know? (And just so you know, so were you, therefore making you just as awesome as me. We should start a club…)
Like I said, no deep philosophical rants. Just trying to remind myself I was “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139:14) and that “He who created me will carry it on unto completion until the day of Christ Jesus” (Philipians 1:6).
So I guess I kind of already know the answer to the question. I am Kelly. I am loud, I like colorful things, big words, silly romantic comedies that brainwash me about love. I enjoy laughing at silly videos, trying new restaurants, lying in the grass on a sunny day reading a book. I love helping people, teaching people, loving people. Sometimes I say things I shouldn’t; sometimes I spend way more money than I should. I love Jesus and want to bear His image and seek His will. I can be found lying in bed killing time on Pinterest at 4 in the morning or out with friends karaoking in the evening. Not too shabby, eh?
Well, I know me. And I’m working on loving me.
So I guess the only thing left is loving others. Join me?